It's 8pm and Kyren's been on the C-PAP successfully since around 1:30 this afternoon! Dave was able to be there shortly after they extubated him, and put the prongs in his little nostrils... he only had a few short spells of apnea before beginning to breathe rather well "on his own". Sometimes he would forget to take a breath here and there, but it seems that his brain is beginning to learn how to send those "breathe in, breathe out" signals to his lungs. AMAZING!! I really am in awe...
that this is real. that my baby is strengthening day by day. that he's actually growing little sacs of air in his lungs as we pray.
He is still so tiny and so fragile, but we can see such a difference in his appearance from even just a week or two ago. He's starting to chub up and get jowly cheeks and a double chin. His hair is getting darker and softer and longer. He has tiny eyelashes. And when i held him yesterday, i could feel his fingernails peaking over the tips of his fingers (how in the world do you file something so tiny?). Our little Miracle!
I know that he could still end up back on the vent-- but even the fact that he's been going steadily on the C-PAP for 7 hrs straight brings such joy to my heart! It is proof of God's power at work, strengthening those lungs, day by day, hour by hour. I know that He is breathinig each breath into our little man, and delighting in His creation! He is enjoying 'having mercy on His beloved'! And what a sweet mercy it is--
speaking of which, I slept much better last night-- Thank you Lord that your mercies are always new! They are fresh and personal and powerful. You help Kyren to breathe faster and me to breathe slower, so we each can rest and gain strength. Just another reminder that our need is the same as his. Every breath is a gift... and a sign of dependence on You. And maybe that is partly why you design these trials-- to bring us to that place where breathing in and out becomes the primary goal for the day (and even the moment)... and we realize that without your sustaining power, we wouldn't be able to make it. we need you as much as he does to survive in this world!
Thank you for all the ways you are speaking to us through this sweet and precious trial.
Amen.
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So glad you slept better last night. I pray that tonight will be even more peaceful and restful for you. Triple Hooray(!) for Kyren being on the C-PAP for 7 hours!!! :) And I love your outlook on this - even if he needs to go back on the vent THIS is a miricle and God's power and mercy at work in Kyren. I pray he will stay on the C-PAP and keep on moving forward and if not...just know that one day he will be on the C-PAP and then off the C-PAP breathing on his very own! In meantime, you inspire me! Keep on leaning on HIM!
wow! soo encouraged by your blog today. God is so faithful, isn't He? I can just see in my mind's eye how He is working through all of you, to give you a "future and a hope"... to "bless you and not to harm you".
Praying with you.
Katie
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