mommy comes back

we've been singing this classic a lot lately. Unfortunately ever since we did a full 40 min of sunday school, separation anxiety seems to only be getting worse. it is SO sad and so hard. i can't even take a shower some days without him having to sit in the bathroom on his little chair until i'm done. the other day we went to visit the pre-school where C will be going in the fall. we had visited it once before, and walked around, and even saw my old kindergarten teacher-- she is still there, teaching kindergarten 25 years later! C seemed to enjoy it then, but the other day when we returned to drop off our paperwork (and a big sum of money), he sobbed hysterically from the time we walked in the doors til we were back in the car. not a good sign. i know he could totally be fine come September, but i don't have high hopes. we are going to try to ease into sunday school again over the next couple of months, and pray for his little heart to begin to trust that mommy really NEVER would forget to come back. everyone says it's a stage... but he's been in it now for so long. i'm sure someday i'll look back and long for the times i was so "wanted". but right now, i'd love to have a little space without feeling like i'm torturing the poor little guy. i am trying to prepare him for tomorrow when i'll be going to a wedding for most of the day. he's already crying. i'm trying to reassure him that he'll have so much fun while i'm gone. he's trying to believe me. and so am i!

p.s. i wouldn't normally start prepping him 24 hrs. in advance but it just kinda came up in conversation... who knows, maybe it will work?