Part Time

I am officially a part time employee for the next month-- and it feels so good! My 6 1/2 years at Amnion has truly been an amazing journey of growth and a tremendous gift... and while it has often felt like my "identity", I couldn't be more ready to transition out of it (come April 1st). I love how God does that -- prepares our hearts for what He has planned. Timing is everything, and as a change-resistant person, I am always so thankful when things seem to just fall into place in just the right amount of time. I am actually ready to go!
If I were meant to continue in this line of work, I believe my desire/drive for it would have remained as intense as it once was. And the concrete fact that I am becoming a mother is really a good sign that I am meant to begin a new chapter, one that doesn't involve the same kind of ministry and/or investment. It is no less and no better than my previous assignment-- it is just different. A new and welcome (and somewhat terrifying) season! And while being the Relationship Educator was a passion and a privilege, it really was not my identity. A wise woman once said that if our identity remains in Christ, then our assignment can change at any given moment and we won't be thrown off course. I want to remember this as I begin this journey of motherhood. I want to invest fully in what God has for me as a wife and mom, but be diligent about remembering where my true identity lies. Someday my kids will grow up and move on-- someday my husband may leave this life before i do. And while those transitions will be difficult, I don't want to find myself grieving the loss of "who I am" based on "what I do". I have heard that many women find themselves at a loss for meaning/purpose when their children leave for college. Definitely a time of evaluation and even perhaps of grief, but I don't want to feel lost. Yes, the next couple of decades will be an intense and consuming assignment-- but I want my goal to remain the same-- to remember that who I am is a child of God, and what I do in that identity is daily and hourly up to Him. Whether doing the laundry, changing a diaper, or counseling a teen, full time or part time, may my true identity shine through...