Today i am 27 weeks pregnant and 29 years old. My mom asked how my birthday was and i said "it was ok-- didn't really feel like a birthday-- 29's not that significant..." ....to which she replied, "It was for ME-- I had a brand new baby girl!" I smiled. Wow, my mom was my age when she had me. And her life has never been the same. So i suppose that in about 3 months, my life will suddenly be a very new and exciting 29!
It does freak me out a little to look at that number... It's the last year I will be in my 20's. Um, where did they go? It seems like yesterday I was going off to college. I don't feel that much older-- and yet... I do. So much has changed. I'm a real grown-up, I think. All those fears of "will i get married?" , "will I make it past 25?" , "what will i do with my life?" have all come to pass -- all in perfect timing. Not always the timing I would have expected-- but I don't think I'd change much about it. Still, the number 29 does seem to begin to scream "life moves faster than you think!" From what i hear, it only speeds up once you have kids...
I am beginning to feel the weight of the transition I'm about to go through-- leaving my career to begin a new one-- one I have no clue how to do. Someone told me I should get all my nursery stuff ready before my 8th month-- since I'll be too big and tired to work on it then. But I haven't had a ton of motivation to register or buy stuff. I'm still coming to terms with the fact that there's a real human being in my huge belly! I'm hoping that our childbirth classes in March will help to prepare me mentally a bit. But I'm just not super into the whole reading/researching how to be a parent, how to breastfeed, how to assuage a screaming infant, how to get him on a schedule, etc... kinds of things. It's a whole new world, and perhaps I'm just avoiding the reality of how much I just DON'T know.
At this point I'll open it up for those of you who have experience, and therefore advice! Any and all is welcome! Just don't tell me "oh, you'll do great!" :)
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Mommy Meliss, you asked for advice from your mommy friends out there. I am not a mommy and there fore have no mommy advice, but I do know you and there for have something to say. I completely trust that you do well. You have to cause the baby is coming:)
But no kidding, you might not feel ready, you will be. You know there is a mommy inside of you, she's been waiting for this for a while now. I have seen you with kids, kids love you. I know this is different, now you are merely responsible, you can't stop when you are tired .....
But, I KNOW you will be loving, you will be funny, you will be creative, you will teach your baby by being YOU. Bruno will look up to you for advice and example and that is what you will be. And you don't have to worry, you will grow into that. Remember, he only needs clean diapers, lots of breastmilk and cuddles in the beginning. As his needs grow, so you will grow. I can't wait...... In the mean time, enjoy getting ready in your own pace.
February 8, 2008 1:51 PM
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