feelin it

today i feel 8 months pregnant instead of 5. i think i grew a few inches (everywhere) overnight. i have a headache, shortness of breath, and a whole lot of sluggishness that i just can't shake. i should probably get out in this beautiful 70 degree weather and force my body to get going. but it just feels so good right now to put my feet up and rest while Bubby is napping. We're switching over to one nap a day this week, instead of 2. i thought it'd be worse than it is. it's nice to have a 2 hr. chunk of time in the middle of the day. and it's REALLY nice to have him going to bed on time and sleeping in later! saturday we all slept in til 8am! A family first! it was a beautiful thing. the downside to one nap is a longer morning and a longer afternoon. so if i want to nap, i have to be tired enough to do so by 11 am.

it's hitting me how hard it's going to be to have a newborn and a toddler at the same time. i know most women have done it (a bunch of times over) and survived. but i get exhausted just thinking about it. And those night time feedings! i am finally enjoying a full night's sleep... and already dreading those 2-3x a night wake up calls, where you just want your husband to grow some milk ducts so you can roll over and ignore the piercing screams (like he gets to).

and i'm finding my attitude toward this whole 'it's a boy' thing not so great the past few days. i think the excitement of having a girl would override these unpleasantries i'm contemplating. but the fact that it's another boy seems to make it all passe. been there, done that. and now i have to do it again? i know it sounds awful, but that's where i am today. blah. sorry baby! i know it will all be worth it when we get there-- YOU will be just as worth it as your big brother was. mommy just has hormones.